It's there .. always .. haunting me ...
That picture ... the good one ... not the perfect one ... and not the real one either .. the one with you smiling and giving me that look ... that look that made me feel alive for the first time in my entire existence ...
It should have been forever, or at least for a while, but not like that ... how did I miss it .. was it me that got us that far? ... the guilt .. I hate you for that ... no no no !!!! ... NOO !! .. I CAN'T HATE YOU!! .. I just don't love you .. and it hurts ... like tearing my heart out of my chest and telling it that it doesn't belong there anymore ... and sadly, deep inside, my heart knows ... it knows that it should be cast away for now ... probably for good ... for the greater good ... we worked so hard for us, we worked so hard for this ...
My heart leaves ... it abandons us ... it abandons me
